Mandisa, who admits that she was an emotional binge eater and slave to every fad diet, says her addiction to food began when her mom and father divorced and she was later molested and raped.
“I’m starting to get a lot of attention, and when I was overweight I always thought I wanted a man to look at me,” says Mandisa. “But it makes me uncomfortable because I’ve always thought of being beautiful as dangerous after what happened to me. I realized that in order to protect myself I made myself less desirable to men by getting heavier. Food substance became my safety.”